I wonder what I’m escaping from
Power, money, or my inability
to be satiated with either
Am I trying to escape
from accepting my mediocrity
or from accepting my excellence
Am I escaping from making up my mind
Making a decision as to whether
I’m power hungry or peace loving
Whether I’m mediocre or excellent
Whether I’m decisive or indecisive
And thereby live in an endless loop
of conflict. And thereby
not live at all.