I look at my heart.
I look at my mind.
My heart is screaming for my attention.
My mind is continuously chattering knowing that it already has my attention.
I stuff my mind with more information.
My mind now knows I need to listen to the heart.
My mind now knows that it needs to stop chattering, for me to be able to listen to my heart.
I attempt to quieten my mind, but the chatter only gets louder.
I realize that I’m the mind, and the mind is not going to self-immolate.
My mind protests and resists.
I need to step back.
I need to dissociate from the mind, and then look at my mind and heart.
Unfortunately I’m still in my mind, and my mind does not know beyond itself.
My mind does not understand where to step back even if it wanted to.
I need to step back. I want to step back. I don’t know how to step back.
OK. Where the F*** is god? I need help here.
